Saturday, February 24, 2007


It was sometime since my Granny was admitted to a hospital in udupi, my mom had to rush to udupi…I had plans of visiting her so went on with this to visit her on the weekends… I took the bus to udupi rather in a bad mood…. With lots of thoughts in mind… I couldnot sleep for a long time was having a look at the roads outside the window….trying to figure out whats the reason of life and stuffs?

I visited udupi early morning only and directly went to my uncle house… I had some plans for the day but was soooo tired tat I could only end up sleeping half of the day…. It was then I decided to go to malpe beach…..

I reached the beach around 3.30….it was nice to see the beach where I have lots of memories…. After long time I had come here…I saw the sea was a bit tiered of this world it had gone back…but was shure it will come back with big waves after regaining its energy….. I decided to take a small walk along the water….. but I went on for a long way….lots of thoughts were running behind my mind….with no answers for anything…..

I remembered this place….where I used to come once in a year with the entire family…. 5 uncles…aunts and lots of kids… we used to play a lot in the water under the watchful eyes of our parents….now I sit here and see lots of things has changed…all uncles are old and are burdened by the sorrows of life….but still everyone is trying to smile….trying to hide the pain everyone is having….

Certain strange things were coming in my mind…. Every person runs behind god… but no one is doing anything… leaving everything on god… felt bad for people fighting in the name of god… I have been practicing my cast since my birth but now feel like I am not able to see the god in the stones any more….when I can see god in the people I felt there is no point in running around temples… one of my uncle is a doctor…. I remember him teaching me good values in life…. Holding my hand and teaching me what I wanted to know… I remember my athe… sitting with me and teaching me in my school days…. But felt sooooo bad thinking about their phase now…my uncle the lone bread earner for the family is paralyzed and at home … I could learn lots from the still shining eyes of my athe.. in my view she is a lady of toughness whoz not going to give up her fight…I know what she has done and I have lots of respect for her ever since… she is very close to me… so I still kid around her….trying to pull her leg so that she comes to me and squeeze my ears…

Everything came to my mind … times when I used to write with a small pencil.. my first fight with my father for a hero pen…. In my 5th standard… I was beaten a lot for a 25rs pen which was very expensive at that time, but my father was soooo caring even though it was very difficult time for him at that time he got me a hero pen that evening itself…. I used this pen till my 12th and it was my lucky pen for a longtime….

Remembered this beach were in we used to eat a packet of mandakki…and still were lots satisfied…. So went and had a pack of mandakki no use I couldnot find that taste might be because I missed those days where in had value for everything…..a pack of mandakki would keep us happy for long days? I don’t know what happend to those days? I could feel the pain in every human being…every one had his own problems of life…. But felt like everyone is lost…. No one knows how to come out of the same…. And are directionless running behind god for help…. What can he do for every one? Felt like he has stopped serving people but still people don’t want to give up and trying to pursue him. I felt like people are forgetting what they need to do… felt like if I don’t do pooja and help a person in need will the god be angry on me? I don’t think so…

I could feel a lot…. like kids of a mother… want to take care of her but still not able to do so and fight against each other blaming each other but no one is ready to take the task… and the mother lying on the bed unaware of everything what her own kids for whom she had given her life is thinking of her…. I don’t want to blame anyone… because felt like that’s the life of a common man trying to forget and shed an old leaf for the sake of a hosa chiguru…. Feelings are lot different when compared to the action…. Every one feels bad for person in misery but how many stands by it ? I could feel the mother asking her kids to take care of her….. but everyone are simply lost….a cry which required lot of understanding and service…. But the kids r tying their best….

I could see the sun going down felt like this is life….rises at one end and goes down at the other…. Doing something in between…felt like the mother is a drowning sun… at one point felt she is not able to hear anything but on the other end I saw a drop of tear dropping from her eyes….felt like she is feeling everything but still soooo helpless….

Sat on the beach, took out my camera taking some good snaps of the sunset started walking back putting my head down…. Thinking I need to act now…

While coming back met and old grany….in the bus stop…she asked for food I gave her 2rs… she gave back the money telling she is in no need of money and asked me to give something to eat… I felt sooo bad and gave her 10rs but felt bad like I could have given her more… and told her I don’t have anything to eat so please take this money and have some food…she asked me were am I traveling to …and blessed me….felt bad for the granny and hugged her…. She left wishing me and next day I was back to my routine life working…. But still sleeping every night giving a thought…

Sunday, February 11, 2007


I should accept the fact tat I was bit lazy to get the tickets for the air show which I wanted to go. And as expected when I went to canara bank and asked for the ticket there were no tickets left out. I felt very bad but I spoke to my cousin Anirudh who studies in MVIT next to the Yelahanka defense aerodrome, so I thought of going over there and watching the air show from his hostel top.

What an airshow I think its for the first time both US and Russia have shown their powers at a single air show. This years air show had maximum attraction for many reasons like India is one of the biggest market for defense products and also a very ambitious project of Indian air force of acquiring around 6 billion dollar worth 126 advanced fighter jets, The deal is soooo fascinating that even the US couldn’t hold back and pitched in their F-16 and F-18 for the show, I think they might have entered the Indian air space for the first time. Ratan Tata had a good experience on both the F-16 and F-18 but what stole my attraction was the total new Mig-35 which had come for the first time and my favorite Sukio.

I left my home early at around 10am and reached through the horrible traffic near the airfield to my cousin’s college. He was waiting for me as the morning show had just begun. I was going on the road and the Sukio just flew over my head, the sound was so strong that I felt my hand was shaking while driving my bike I had to slow down a bit, the fighter plan flew very low what an amazing view, I wished I could have taken a snap of the same..

After a brief view of the Swedish Gripen, F-16 and F-18 I went for lunch with my cousin at his hostel mess, some how I managed to disguise as a student and had food with my cousin. After a small break at his room we ran back to the show which was about to begin.

The afternoon show began with the Swedish Gripen, it was good show but I felt this plan was not the 4th generation plan but was a good plane compared to the old fleet we have Mig-21s and Mig-29s. Through out the show this plane left a white tail to read his maneuvers it was good show by the pilot.

This was followed by one of my favorite of the airshow Mig-35, it started with a very small run up and a big thunder….zooooom once in the sky there was no limit for its stunts… it was very difficult for me to capture photos from my camera , He did great stunts like going totally vertical to the ground then giving a free fall from the top, amazing stunts… I was just thinking about how best these pilots has to be to do all these, how stable his mind has to be? Even a bit of arrogance or even a bit of different thought can change anything….this had great speeds it had reached from Moscow to Bangalore in 3hrs. It was coated with red and blue colours

This was followed by my favorite Sukio, I don’t know but I am a big fan of this plan.. may be because of its design or looks, It’s a huge fighter jet, “75” was written on the back of the plane. The speed, the design , the looks everything of this metal bird fascinates me a lot, it’s a dream for me to sit in this plane lets c!

There was a big …big very big US military transport vehicle as well I got a good view of the same. I did not like much of F-16 or F-18 because this looked more like our own Mig-29s. I did not think it was a match for either Sukio or Mig-35.

The last was the acrobatic team of surya kiran I should really appreciate these pilots for the amount of risk they take in day to day life a fraction short or a mistake and I belive all 9 planes will be on ground. Its hard to explain these man overs I have got some photos of the same I only can put up the same.

At the end it was a hard day for me standing in the sun for the whole day and had to come back home on that horrible traffic was tiered and exhausted, just had food and slept early. But one thing I regretted a lot was if I had gone to the airshow stall I could have got the tickets! I did not know about this and missed an opportunity…..